Twelve days after my husband died, I caught my neighbor climbing over my fence with bags full of his apples. I thought she wanted the fruitâuntil she mentioned a secret from 27 years ago.
My husband, Daniel, treated our apple trees like members of the family.
Every September, he walked through the garden with a pair of pruning shears in his back pocket, inspecting branches and turning apples in his palm as if they might tell him when they were ready.
âWhen itâs ready, you wonât have to fight for it.â
That afternoon, our eight-year-old son, Ben, followed him from tree to tree with a basket.
âNot that one,â Daniel said when Ben reached for a bright red apple.
Ben frowned. âIt looks ready.â
âLooks can lie. Give it a little twist.â
Ben tried again. The apple stayed firmly on the branch.
âSee?â Daniel smiled. âWhen itâs ready, you wonât have to fight for it.â
She had known Daniel years before I met him.
I wanted to hold on to afternoons like that.
Daniel had been tired more often lately, and although neither of us said much about it in front of the children, I had started watching him too closely. How long he rested after climbing the ladder. Whether he finished dinner. How often he rubbed his chest when he thought I wasnât looking.
He caught me staring. âClaire, stop worrying.â
âI wasnât.â
Iâd never cared.
âYouâve been married to me for twenty-seven years. Youâre terrible at lying.â
Before I could answer, a voice floated over the fence.
âThatâs quite a harvest this year.â
Our neighbor Monica stood on the other side, looking through the branches. At fifty, she was always perfectly put together, even when she was supposedly gardening.
She had known Daniel years before I met him.
âHe just reminds me of someone.â
Apparently theyâd grown up around the same circles and gone out a few times when they were young.
Daniel had mentioned it casually when Monica inherited her parentsâ old house and moved back next door nearly nine years earlier.
Iâd never cared.
Ancient history was ancient history.
The man had disappeared inside Monicaâs house.
Minutes later, a van pulled up in Monicaâs driveway, and a young man climbed out carrying a toolbox. Heâd been around her house several times that summer.
âYour plumberâs back,â I said.
Monica glanced toward him. âOld houses. Thereâs always something.â
The man looked over and lifted a hand.
Daniel returned the gesture, then kept staring for another second.
âWhat?â I asked.
Twelve days later, my husband died.
âNothing.â Daniel rubbed his jaw. âHe just reminds me of someone.â
âWho?â
Daniel looked again, but the man had disappeared inside Monicaâs house.
âI donât know. Canât place it.â
Then Ben called him back to the trees, and the moment passed.
Daniel rested one hand on our sonâs shoulder and looked up through the branches. âThese trees will keep feeding you, even when Iâm gone.â
Then a branch snapped.
My stomach tightened. âDaniel.â
âWhat?â He gave me that familiar smile. âTrees live a long time.â
âThen talk about them living a long time. Not you disappearing.â
He squeezed my hand when I joined them.
Twelve days later, my husband died.
âMom?â
The afternoon we returned from his funeral, I carried a sleeping Lily from the car while Ben walked beside me clutching Danielâs old cap against his chest.
I barely noticed the garden at first. I was thinking about getting the children inside, taking off my shoes, and somehow surviving the first evening in a house that no longer had my husband in it.
Then a branch snapped.
I stopped.
âWhat are you doing?â
Another rustle came from behind the apple trees.
âMom?â Ben whispered.
I handed him the house keys and walked toward the garden.
Monica was halfway over our fence, her flowered blouse caught on a nail. Two large bags sat on our side of the fence, bulging with Danielâs apples and pears.
For several seconds, neither of us spoke.
âWell, heâs not here now, is he?â
Then Monica looked at meâand instead of shame, I saw annoyance, as if I were the one who had interrupted something I had no right to see.
âWhat are you doing?â I gasped.
Monica tugged her blouse free from the nail and climbed down. âDonât be selfish, Claire. Iâm going to sell it. I need the money.â
I stared at the two bags. âYou couldâve asked.â
âGrief has made you hysterical.â
âAnd would you have said yes?â
âNo. My children eat those. Their father grew them.â
Monica rolled her eyes. âWell, heâs not here now, is he? Theyâll only rot.â
For one awful second, I couldnât speak.
Ben was only a few feet behind me, still holding Danielâs cap. I saw his fingers tighten around the brim.
I stepped between him and Monica.
âYou clearly meant something.â
âThese arenât your trees, and this isnât your property. Donât you dare come onto my land again.â
âOh, please.â Monica reached for one of the bags. âGrief has made you hysterical.â
âLeave the fruit and go.â
She gave me a long look before dropping the bag. âYouâve always been very protective of things once you decide theyâre yours.â
âWhat is that supposed to mean?â
I knew exactly what red light she meant.
âNothing.â
âNo. You clearly meant something.â
Monica climbed back over the fence.
Before disappearing into her yard, she glanced over her shoulder. âFunny how much your life depended on one red light twenty-seven years ago.â
I froze. âWhat?â
It became our private joke.